15 January

Just like my previous post, Cancer is emotional, sensitive. Today date made me felt nostalgia. Last year, I blogged also about 15 Jan. Last year this time I asked the same question: do you still remember this special date? Last year this time, the feeling was different as it carried some sweetness in the message. This year, right now, the feel is completely opposite. Just nostalgic.

Until now this photo frame is still empty without a photo
First Love by Utada Hikaru


I always thought that this song is a sweet and lovely song especially the piano version. There's a time I thought maybe I could use this song as my theme song for my wedding. Then I Googled for the meaning of the song and found out that it was a sad love song. Ceh... the idea was totally cut off.

This is the direct translation from the Japanese version:

Our last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song 

This is the English version by others, the lyric meaning changed already:


Every year, 15 January is just an ordinary day but it keeps me feeling nostalgic.